Blessed Beyond Belief

You know those moments where you just have to sit in a quiet place and process? The Lord is so good and I am floored by the blessings He has placed in my life. I don’t deserve any of the blessings He has bestowed on me. It is very humbling to think about all He has done for me and blessed me with when I continue and continue and continue to sin and don’t spend the time with Him that He deserves or that I need to grow. Why would He do the things He graciously does for me? and then I wonder, why aren’t I stewarding these gifts right and honoring Him at all times? Well, I would like to say that I do, but unfortunatly my flesh doesn’t allow that. But God is soooo good :), I can’t imagine the patience it takes to deal with and wait on me. But He is faithful, just and loving and for that I say THANK YOU LORD, thank you! Thank you for the sweet people in my life Lord, I am so thankful for every one of them and want to love and serve them like YOU intended, but still love and serve you FIRST and MOST :)

Learning to wholeheartdly trust, learning to have the want to to grow, learning to not only desire but to have an intimate relationship with God is a process, BUT it’s a process I want to be involved in. What keeps me from these things? Pride? there’s a good chance of that. Laziness? That’s also true. Satisfaction in other things that are a true blessing, but shouldn’t be what I count on to ”fill” me? yes, that too. Lord, help me to be joyful/excited/and thankful for the sweet blessings in my life while still putting YOU at the forefront. You are the reason for all that is good in my life in the first place and YOU can teach me how to love the people I love better than anyone.

I love these lyrics and for some reason, have had them running through my head for a bit today.

“To my audience of one
You are Father, and you are Son
As your spirit flows free,
Let it find within me
A heart that beats to praise you.
And now just to know you more
Has become my great reward
To see your kingdom come
And your will be done
I only desire to be yours,
Lord

So what could I bring
To honor your majesty
What song could I sing
That would move the heart of royalty
And all that I have
Is the life that you’ve given me
So Lord let me live for you
My song with humility

And Lord as the love song
Of my life is played
I have one desire
To bring glory to your name

Lord, as you know, I tend to drift at times, but You continue to run hard after my heart and for that I thank You! Thank you for the awesome accoutability you have placed in my life as well. They push me to pursue You more and more all the time and constantly remind me whose I am. I am not my own, I was bought with a price. I love you Lord God and I thank you for my sweet family, my sweet friends, for Ben, for health and safety, for a roof over our heads/food/water, etc. but most of all, thank you for Your Son and the sacrifice He made so that we wouldn’t have to live life without You, without hope, without a purpose. Your will be done, not my own. Help me to follow and pursue You wholeheartdly. :)